The evil ME

My mind says that I’m bad

And the evil in me is what makes me sad…

But hearts sits up and revolts

Says the good in me is what always jolts…

It shakes the black side

And brings down all the pride…

But what do I do with my mind

Which says the good has made me blind…

To the bad which in me rests

And shows me only in my bests…

Someone’s shoulder to cry

Can’t be found even if I try…

My eyes cry of emptiness

What use is this selflessness…

There is something I miss

Which can get me the needed bliss…

But expectations always break your heart

When others don’t play their part…

But the point that I want to confess

And put down with all emphasis and stress…

That I hate myself to betray

And let my thoughts astray…

There are millions of questions which I want to ask

But here’s one from the overflowing flask…

If I’m good why doesn’t it show

Like the angles why doesn’t my heart glow…

And if I’m not then why do you lie that way

Like the evil why doesn’t my heart fly away…

The Day!

I wish for myself a day
Which is mine in every way….

When I can happily scream and shout
And don’t have to think of the tasteless sprout….
When I don’t have to hide any fear
And my place in making my life decisions is not in the rear….
When I can eat all the wonderful ice-creams
And fulfill all those deeply hidden dreams….

That day I would love to color my hair blonde
And drive a Harley just like James Bond….
Another fantasy would be the dream car
Also Volkswagen Beatle then won’t be too far….
I’ll fondly wear that sexy dress
And shoo away the guys trying to impress….

Also a dream is to have a friends’ night out
And not to leave a rule that we don’t flout….
I would love to go then for bungee jumping
And go into the woods for under the sky camping….
Lying in the camp I’ll look at the stars
Smelling the lovely fragrance of flowers….

That’ll be the day when in my life I’ll rule
And show them my worth who once called me a fool….
When there is not a rope which can bind
And every moment I can easily rewind….
In the end, I want to hold him in my arms
With whom I can have an elating dance….

It’s so wonderful to wish for myself a day
Which is mine in every possible way….